User Profile

Perpetually confused and often neurotic, I vacillate from extreme interest to extreme disgust with anything that happens to catch my eye for even the briefest period of time. An avid reader, I tend to devour good fantasy novels with an occaisional sci-fi so that I can consider myself "well-read." I am very critical of others but only because I know it is merely an escape to avoid examining myself. I have matured a lot in recent years due to those things termed "growing up" and "being responsible." I still tend to overdraw my bank account once in a while because I just don't pay attention but surprisingly, I have an amazing memory and an extreme need to take care of the "little things" in life and I am quite often accused being a perfectionist. My life's ambition was to never get out of my pajamas, at which I have so far acheived in bursts of 1 or 2 years at a time. Unfortunately, college has passed so that ambition seems further and further out of reach. I like to babble on and blather about nothing really important while dancing around the subject at hand and I'm excessively full of annoying or cute anecdotes, depending on which side of the personality spectrum you originate. I dream far larger than life but function as a realist and a cynic, though I believe that horoscopes have something to them and marriage is overrated. I could perhaps be considered as a bundle of contradictions but that would be too... stereotypical. My biting wit is not nearly as witty as I would like it to be or think it is, yet I have a constant need for self-congratulation and acknowledgment from others. I am striving for the sort of abrupt and thoughtless honesty about myself that makes for awkward situations and awkward moments because I know how uncomfortable it can make people and I love to see reactions from others, yet I am not doing so well at the honesty bit, but instead making myself look perpetually silly and frivolous.


If you actually read any of this profile and haven't clicked elsewhere out of boredom, disgust, contempt or any of those other emotions which most people try to ignore or hide, I probably would find you interesting.
Those of unique and varied dispositions are always interesting but I prefer to associate with people who either reflect an aspect of myself with which I am happy with or feel that I have accepted and integrated into my personality makeup. Associating with anyone other than any of those tends to make me very insecure and like all humans (even those that don't admit it), I flee from insecurity. I am not so good at real-life relationships because I either do not have the stamina or the attention span to associate with anyone for a long period of time - hence my lack of friends in the real world but a large amount via sporadic internet contact. It is nothing personal or against anyone else, I just tend to get bored periodically and feel the need to prune my associations, just as a rosebush needs a periodic cutting to grow larger and more beautifully.

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